失望

Alohaaa! 我回来了啦~  还记得我吗？=D

平平安安的去，平平安安的回。玩得很开心，比我想象中的好。满意！不过真的累坏了。全身都很酸，很痛。><"~ 老了吗？=]... 本来不打算把照片放上来，因为懒惰的关系。但因为在旅行中答应了朋友们，所以嘛，就必须遵守我所答应过他们的~ 不过，并不是现在，迟点才把照片放上来。还有一大堆东西还没做。烦 + 累...

话说:

成绩出来了，比我想象中的好。

但我还是感到很失望。

其实，我的要求不是很高，因为我知道，外国的考纸并不容易考上的。

我真的已经很努力了。 我真的尽力了。

比别人做的多又怎样？

比别人努力又怎样？

结果，还不是一样。

我真得用了许多的时间去做，去查询资料。

改了又改。不断的去改进。

但到头来，我所的到的还是失望。

我果然不是读书的材料，做了这么多，还是一样。

我的努力，白费了吗？=(

唯一让我觉得庆幸的是，至少，我全科都及格。

我是个失败者。=（

奇怪的我...

有时候，我很奇怪。明明不开心，但却伪装没事。

有时候，我很奇怪。明明不喜欢，但却勉强自己去喜欢。

有时候，我很奇怪。明明很想知道，但却没有勇气去问。

有时候，我很奇怪。明明没事，但却不知不觉的流眼泪。

有时候，我很奇怪。明明很想去关心别人，但往往不会开口去问候。

有时候，我很奇怪。明明很想要，但却没有勇气开口去要。

有时候， 我很奇怪。明明一而再，再而三的被背叛，但还是会把对方当成朋友。一次，两次，三次还是一样...

有时候，我很奇怪。明明很开心，但不知道为什么心里总有种奇怪的感觉。

有时候，我很奇怪。明明很生气某某、某某人，但到最后往往不知道什么原因而不生气了。

有时候，我很奇怪。明明不想要，但却不会说：“我不要”。

有时候，我很奇怪。明明很在乎某某，某某人，但却不懂得该做什么去让对方开心。

有时候，我很奇怪。明明很想哭，但却因为有人在，立即就把眼泪赶紧收起来、擦干。

有时候，我很奇怪。明明很累了、想睡了，但却睡不着。

有时候，我很奇怪。明明很在乎，但却常常假装不理，不在乎。

有时候，我很奇怪。往往不知道自己想要什么。有时候很想去生气一个人，但却因为心软，而自己在生闷气。有时候，我真的很讨厌自己，因为自己没有原则。我很奇怪。对，我真的很奇怪。很怪，很怪... 我就像一只迷失的羊，不知道该往什么方向走~

P/S: Just checked my Degree Semester 1 results. And yeahh, I PASS all of the subject currently, but left PBR haven't out yet. Grades still haven't know yet. Anyway, I'm really happy! Hipp-Hipp Hoorayy! Although I knew it was really hard to get good grades, but yet, I'm still happy enough that I PASS those subjects! This was my BEST holidays present for me!! Wheeeee~ =D

Oh ya, Penang trip with friends tomorrow. Hope everything goes well and enjoy it! =D

Hope everything will goes well.

Thank you for everything, dear Lord. =D

Holidays + Nathelie's Open House

Almost middle of the June now. And yeah, which mean my holidays just left 2 more weeks only. T^T...

I do enjoy my holidays. Enjoy with my hectic holidays. Hmmmm, I did find part-time job. Interview it but at the end, I rejected it with some purposes. Just don't feel like working there. Maybe because of the benefits they gave were just too low? Or I guess it was the manager problem who interviewed me? I just don't feel she was that friendly. At the end... Yeahh, I rejected it. =]

Staying at home, going out, hanging out, traveling~ And it ended up with money keep going out but NOT coming in. Pity me. T^T... Who wanna donate me some money? I don't mind. Thanks first. =P

Went for a hair cut. She cut my fringe too short. T^T... And I look more alike like small kid now. >,<"~

Like small kid.. >,<"~

My fringe.. So short.. T^T..

And yeah. I play with my fringe. LOL.

Spike spike hair... =]
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Attended Nathelie's Open House yesterday. Invited by her and go along with brother's friends. Not really that bored, quite enjoy it. Mixing around with them. Hehe. Took some photos. But most of the photo were taken by someone else. LOL. And yeahh, I enjoy our chatting session too. Joking around non-stop. Laugh laugh and laugh. =D

 

The group photo. =)

The GIRLS~

My pose is still the same. Hahaha..

Laughing ^^

Everyone got their own personal things to do. =]

Trying to promote the book? LOL..

 Bully-ing Eileen..XD

Pei Ying and Nathelie. =)

This picture CUTE. =P

Yeahh. Model of the day. =P

Merryy Christmass~ LOL..

Hugging his SON. =P

Yeah, Guitar~

=)

 All my picture is with the BEAR. =D

 Bear Bear Lee...xD

 Pro? =]

The face look so.......XD

 Someone with someone. =]

 Hahahaha.. Bearssssss~

Food...

Natural shot~

Carlsberg~

Don't worry, I'm a good girl. I didn't drink it. =P

Brother and sister. =)

Eating-ing...

Cloudy feel...XD

No eyes see...XD

 Satay!

 

Tiger Chia.

Cute!! =D

Oh ya, we do also celebrate Nathelie's birthday also. This was a surprise birthday done by her family. Nothing related with us. Haha. We just sing her a birthday song. =P Anyway, Happy Advanced Birthday Nathelie! My first time celebrate birthday with you. Hahaha. Wish you always happy and all the best in your future! =D

 Secret Birthday cake. =D

Actually I don't know who are the others. 
Well, I guess it was her relatives. 

I only know the middle one and the 2 on the right. @_@!!

Anyway, Happy Birthday too. =]

Singing song~ ^^

Blewwwww Offfffff~

 Celebrating 2 of them birthday. 

Pulling the candles together. =)

Cuting cake. =)

Relatives, brothers and sisters. =)

Lasty, the water bottle that I took before going back.

"Let's pray for Japan." =D

P/S: It was a happy day. It was really a tiring day, but yet I really enjoy a lot. Reached home at 1am. Thank god for sending us home safely. And I received a bad news  from honey says that her granpa has pass away out of the sudden. RIP to her granpa. Stay tough! Get well soon Honey! Remember I will always stay with you! =)

May God always stay with us no matter what happened.

Amen. =)