TRUST

My mind is so complicated now. I guess I get affected by the "trend" now. Those emo feeling really killing me. It can make me drop tears out of the sudden with or without any reason.

Mummy said, if I felt unhappy, please tell her. Don't kept everything inside the heart.

Sometime I have no idea what am I thinking of. Everything seems to be unclear. Out of sudden, I remember someone told me before that [A] is not trusted. And without any doubt, I denied it that [A] is not. Why? Because I TRUST. I trust with all my heart. Without any doubt till now. 

Things make me changed. Wondering now, should I continue to remain silent or should I go ahead for it? I knew which is the right way I supposed to do, but just that I don't wanna do so. Just because of 1 word, TRUST. Some of my friends said that I'm too kind or so-called it as "stupid". Hmmm, whatever.

I trust you with all my heart no matter what people says about you. Please show me that you're trustable.

***Today is Sunday. As usual having class on this day. Finally, Corporate Finance assignment was out by today. Thank god. This was a group work assignment. Hopefully we can did it well. Good luck everyone. :)

I don't want to ask, because I trust...
I'm still waiting for your promised...

We have to let go no matter how

Currently I felt that many people around me always moody and sad. Sigh. What happened? Why everyone also having this kind feeling? Is it because of the trend thingy? LOL. -.-

Sometime I do wish time can turn back. I wish I could go back to those chilhood days where I can do whatever I want. No worries at all! As we grew elder, problems tend to kept arise. :(

 

How good if I'm still a small little kid. I can cry whenever I felt sad, need not need to pretend to anyone. After cried, mummy and daddy will come and comfort me. Hmmm..... I did not meant that now we can't express it to them, but it was quite hard for us to tell them everything what we faced. Agree?

I do think before, if I never grew up, then I'll always be a BIG BABY in my family. To become one of a good member in the family, we must learn how to face problems and solve it by ourselves. At the same time, if they face problems, we have to help them out too. We grew in physically, either mentality. Don't always rely on others.

If you felt stress, try to find your own way to express it out. Just like me, I will either find my besties to say it out or either express it in my blog. Don't kept everything inside the heart. Here, I did not meant that I'm telling everything to them. I do kept some towards myself. Even my family members won't know it. 

Well, I believe everyone has their own small little tiny secrets. This is normal. I do have too. But please remember, "small tiny secrets" are those secrets that we can handle it by ourselves. If we can't handle it, please find your own ways to solve it. It would be really difficult for you to take everything towards yourself. Trust me, it does.

Today was just an ordinary day for me. Nothing much happened. Went out with my brother and his friend. Had Shabu 1 as our BRUCH. Hmmm, food quality were not as good as last time. Please do improve it. *Thumbs down* :(

I understood that sometime some certain things can't be forced. 

We have to let it go no matter how.

雨天的心情

昨天因某些原因，已经觉得闷闷不乐了。不过，早已经没事了。可是，今天一早，又开始了。和平时一样，星期一有早课。我和她就在火车站里等。一见到她时，我不知道该说些什么。所以我选择了“沉默”。静静的，不出声。

平时的我们，一定会在这短短的5分钟路里聊天。但今天的我们，却不是。在这路程里，我们只是说了一句话。很少，真的很少。突然间我对她有点陌生的感觉。很熟悉的声音，但我却不认得这把声音是谁了。

到达了我们的学校，我耍卡去看我们读什么班。平时的她，她必定会问我读什么班。但今天的她却没像平时那样。我们彼此间不知道该说些什么。所以，我们也选择了“沉默”。

进了班里，她在看报纸，而我就在吃我的早餐。气氛变得更尴尬了。那时候班上只有4个人，包括我们俩。很静。甚至静到我觉得有些孤单。过了一阵子，她开口问了我一个问题。我就默默地回答她了。

她可以算是其中之一了解我的朋友。她知道若我默默地答她的问题，或则常不出声，这就代表我不开心。无可否认，这就是我。甚至很多人都知道。我的性格可以完全和平时不一样。我的表情完全表露在我的脸上了。
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我们今天的话题，就只有两句。答了她的问题后，我和她就“冷战”。彼此间有种隔离的感觉。她不说话，我也静静的。休息时，我出了课室外面，并默默地坐在楼梯旁。

认识越久，就更觉得不了解她。为什么会这样？我不喜欢这种感觉。我更讨厌。我不要回到以前那样，我不要。我怕了。现在的我，我正在努力渐渐的忘记过去。我相信，我已有做到一部分了。因为你们的鼓励，你们的陪伴。我才能够做的到。谢谢！

很快的就放学了。我们俩还是很“静”。我在前，她在后。就这样到达了火车站。平时总觉得这段路很短的，但今天，不知为何我总觉得它特别的长。甚至走到有些累。途中收到一封信息。看了过后，“................”。 算了，别提。

在火车里，我望左边，她望右边。心情超差的说。眼里积了眼泪，慢慢的流了下来。我忍，但还是流下来了。很庆幸的是她没看到。

当她下了火车，第一时间我就讯息她...

我：对不起~

她：为何？

我：对不起~

她：为什么不开心？

我：我在哭。

她：为什么？发生了什么事吗？

她：为什么？朋友之间不该有什么隐瞒的。

她连续记了两封讯息，我并没回她。在车里想了一会儿，真的哭了。眼泪不停的掉，也用了好几张的纸巾来抹眼泪。大概15分钟过后，我逼自己停下来。因为每当我哭，我的鼻子就会红红的，眼睛就会仲仲的。我怕回到家让妈妈看到，所以我就用水来撒在我脸上让自己冷静下来。

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回到家了，当做什么事都没发生过。我的鼻子，眼睛已没那么的明显了。妈妈也在休息，所以也没什么去注意我的。幸好! >"<~!! 我把所有的讯息通通都撤除了。 然后就坐在电脑前，上“面子书”。

她在“面子书”里有找我。

她：为什么不开心？可以老实的告诉我，可以吗？

我：没事。

她：我真的很想知道发生了什么事。老实告诉我可以吗？关于到我的吗？

我想了一会儿，告诉她是件好事吗？还是什么都不说好呢？想了又想，我终于告诉她了。把全部事情都收起来，真得很辛苦。很庆幸的我把我的不满告诉了她。现在的我，轻松的多了。

星期三约了Honey 和 Raeshyl 去吃Jogoya。哇~期待这一天的来临~ =)

这一切，已成了过去了。

现在的我，应该要好好珍惜眼前人~

 呵呵~ 

19102010

19102010 is a happy day. I went out with one of my primary friend, Amy. Enjoy it to the max. I can't describe those feeling, it's just awesome. ♥

We had a lot of fun although it's just a 5 hours "dating". I miss her so much. I'm eager and waiting for the next "dating" with her. Yea, she booked me already. Anyone who wanna date me out, sorry, I'm not available at the moment. HAHAHA!! xD

Within 5 hours, we took about 200++ photos. Wow! Amzing! Hahahaha! Well, let's make it short and sweet. It's time to post those pictures up, enjoy. :)

Jojo Little Kitchen 

This shop we went is located at Cheras Mahkota. It was famous with Pan Mee.

And it was really nice. Yummy. ♥
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Chili's

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The CUTY AMY. HAHAHA..xD
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Enjoying her Soya Bean
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Focus on her finger nails.

SHARP-YELLOW. O.o~!!

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Natural pose. =)
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Amy's Pan Mee. 

干劳~
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Soya Bean
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Spicy Herbal Chicken Pan Mee.

This is real delicious. You should go try it. ♥

RM7 per bowl. 
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I can't live without chili's.

Especially the left one, I ate 4 "plates" of it. ♥
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Chili's sauces
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With her, photos will be taken non-stop. xD
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I miss YOU. ♥
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2 cameras. 

One is my handphone, another was my camera. :)
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Good. :)

Gosh, I don't know why I followed her pose.

Those waiter thought we were gone crazy. 

HAHAHA.. LOL.. x]
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I know you, is the greatest blessing from god. :)
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Shock!!!
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<.<

Peace

Salute

While drinking my water. Hahaha..xD

Chat, chat and chat.... Snap, snap and snap at Jojo little Kitchen there. Crazy!! HAHAHAHA!! Then headed to Cheras Selatan Jaya Jusco for a movie. Wheee~ Later on, went to OldTown for chit-chatting and photosnap session. Heeehe~ ♥.. Enjoy~ :)

Old Town Menu~

While ordering~

She took my camera and non-stop snapping photo! x]

See, again~!

:)

Nice one! :)

We watch Reign of Assassins~
Amy cried 3 times inside the cinema~!! >"<~!!
Wahahaha~!!! xD

She asking for help. 

Anyone willing to help her? HAHAHAH!! ^^!!

My chocolate enrich. Yummy!

I love chocolate! =)

Adding ice.

The Kaya and butter toast bread I ordered.

Eating bread. I like this pic though. =)

>.>

Quite natural yea? Hahaha..

RAR~ Bread~

Chocolate is the best drink. I supposed.

She asked me took.

Kissing the bread. x]

Same face 1

Same face2

With flash..

Amy, 8 years of friendship.

And I cherish it, thanks for being my friend. =)

I'm eager for the next dating with YOU. ♥

Hahahaha, her yellow PAINT on her fingernails. x]

HUH?

The last picture we took.
Amy, I miss YOU. =)

Your laughter bright up my day.

Seriously, I MISS YOU so much. ♥